I Love You Foxy, Forever

by Sonia Loren
(Sydney, Australia)

"He is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog. You are his life, his love, his leader. He will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart. You owe it to him to be worthy of such devotion"

Foxy
31st May 2014

I can't believe in less than 8 months I've lost another best friend, my angel... 'Foxy' I've had you for fifteen years, half my life. Those fifteen years, I'll cherish close to my heart, forever In those 15 years you taught me unconditional love... I never thought I could love anyone as much I loved you.

I loved everything about you; your beautiful nature and gentleness. You always knew how to put a smile on my face on even the hardest of days. Only you both knew how hard things really got for me. However, you always knew how to lift me up when I was feeling down.

I remember getting you as a puppy from the local nursery back in '99. That day, my life changed for the better. We had lots of fun adventures and you always drew attention wherever we went, everyone loved you. I loved carrying you in my arms everywhere I went, we were inseparable. I took you to grooming every single week as you deserved to be pampered like a princess. You made my heart melt every time I picked you up, seeing you with the cutest little bows in your hair. I told you my secrets, my fears... You were always there to listen especially at times when I had no one else.

You would sit there listening as if you understood every single word spoken and you would comfort me. I cannot forget the times you would just lay on my chest on the lounge and lick me like crazy. Being the only child, you both were like siblings to me. You were my absolute definition of 'family'. I'm so happy and blessed that you were a part of my life and you always will be... Forever...

You never got sick in your entire fifteen years, so it was shocking for me when you fell ill on Tuesday and was rushed to the emergency animal hospital. I was hoping and praying that it was something minor. My heart literally broke as I heard the diagnosis on Wednesday... I tried to remain strong in front of you as I held you in my arms and you licked my nose and whimpered whilst the vet gave the diagnosis. You were discharged on Friday with the prognosis that you could last days, weeks or even months They said you needed to be home with us. You came home looking like you had been through a battle but was ready to take on the world. You were weak but you were still trying your hardest. I looked in your eyes remaining hopeful as you licked my nose as you always loved to do. On Saturday you looked like you were improving. I remember waving goodbye to you that morning and telling you that I loved you and that I'd see you later that day as I drove off to go on a mission to find you the perfect, comfortable soft crate to make you feel at ease at home. I didn't know that was going to be my last look of your beautiful face.

I can still picture you vividly, enjoying the sun as I left. I found you the perfect soft crate and was so excited to bring it home to you so you could enjoy it. I cannot forget walking through the door and noticing it was quiet, your bed wasn't in its normal place. Then I asked where you were, how you were. Only to be told you were gone. No one was able to get a hold of me I heard you had a very bad turn that afternoon and was rushed to the vet where it was decided that you needed to go peacefully.

Why did that happen? Did you purposely choose that day so I wouldn't see you go like that? I know they say 'everything happens for a reason'. I guess you knew this time round I wouldn't have coped seeing you that way especially so soon after Honey's passing. I wanted to see you, be with you, when you took your last breath The vet advises that I shouldn't see you now as it would be too traumatic for me. I am sooooooooo sorry I was not there when you took your last breath Please forgive me, if only I knew. I haven't stopped crying since I found out you were gone. I felt you around me as they were breaking the news to me. I felt you there, comforting me as I broke down. My world came to a standstill yesterday. I didn't think this day would come so soon...

My heart feels so empty. Not a day will go past where I won't think of you... I miss you sooooooooo much! Rest in peace my best friend, my beautiful little angel...

Ps. I'll never forget your beautiful, inquisitive eyes. Your amazing personality. And your cute little friendship offerings of dog pellets that you leave for me at my bedroom door and hallway. I'll never forget all those special moments we shared. I'll be waiting for you to visit me. I love you Foxy, forever... Until we meet again my love

From all of us

xoxoxo (x Infinity)

'We won't say goodbye 'cause true love never dies'
Beautiful In My Eyes

Sonia, I'm so so sorry for the losses you've suffered. I know how agonizing it is and my heart goes out to you. Your dogs were obviously very deeply loved, and I'm sure that you all enjoyed the type of relationship that everyone wants to have with their pets. When your heart has healed somewhat, perhaps you will be able to welcome another dog into your life - maybe one who is alone, afraid and is running out of options. Whatever you do, I hope that your sadness eases and that you can remember your sweet companions with less pain. Your dogs were more than lucky to have you ~ Sue